moment
now that i am still young
i frustrate over my decisions-investments in time, etc.
but what if
this is the only time in life when i will get to feel freedom?
if later, decisions having already been made
later, life is living with past decisions. stuck even.
so the not knowing
the wanting to know
could be a luxury of youth, and freedom of democracy and globalization.
not knowing if you made the right decisions
could be the delectable crux of drama
movie, odyssey like dramas
glorifiable, aesthetically pleasing.
the only time i will get to be single
to break up with people
to date the wrong men
to date many men who are right in too many different ways
to be lonely, because i hear moms never get a moment to themselves!
to have infinite possibilities still all open and in front of me
to not know
to be surprised (and disappointed)
and to be in this lifestage
to have these matrices of possibilities
to have elan to pursue many different far reaching crazy unreasonable possibilities
to try it all
to have left no stone uncovered
to be outrageous, audacious, loud
to fully disclosed without recourse or real responsibilities to a public persona
to shine
to not care
to have an audience
to be young!
Last 5 posts by Jenny Zhang
- what's in there? - March 5th, 2008
- edge - February 19th, 2008
- outside window sounds like summer - February 15th, 2008
- roof lines - February 15th, 2008
- gallery hop today - February 12th, 2008